December 29th, 2.21pm: Aaaand I'm back

Okay it's been a long while since I've done this. Been so lazy playing Dota and other stuff but I just came back from Christmas and driving 3 hours straight to places and all that stuff.



So much stuff to write about. I stand true to the title of this blog. My guitar playing skills are coming along and I can finally play "Here Without You" by 3 Doors Down. Pretty amazing for me but I still have to keep telling myself that I am better than I was yesterday. I got my results back from the exam and I was worried I'd fail Maths but I GOT AN "A"! What is up with that? I am seriously shocked.

Now I'm ready for my second year in university. I got this. I can break the habit of spending more than 6 hours on the internet and doing something productive. On the positive side of things, I've been going to the gym. I think I'll start on the Starting Strength program. I want to look good and feel good about myself.
I have to go through the hassle of learning how to count calories and all that stuff. This is going to be a pain.

I wish everyone a late Merry Christmas and a happy 2012. LIVE IT UP!

13th December, 2011: Wise Words from Dad.

Last night my father and I had a talk about life. We listened to old music and talked about the past. I realized my father and I had one thing in common. He said that it doesn't feel good when you eat food without earning it first. He says it is not fulfilling. As a person who has been sheltered for most of his life, I feel empty. I constantly look for that one thing that can change everything and fulfill me.

Honour is what I look for. Being able to pick yourself up and stand tall and be proud of something. People see you and look up to you and some may even envy you. That feeling of achievement is what being human is all about. We will all pass away from this Earth. One day we will no longer exist, and as long as we're alive I believe that we should all make a difference. Some people may say that they want to just relax and enjoy themselves. I want to change how people think and I want to inspire people.

I will try my best to change so I am not considered a sheltered basement dweller.
On the plus side, I got paid today and received a certificate of recognition for helping out in the data entry exercise. It was totally worth it. I hope I am contacted again so I can earn more money and feel good about myself. Waking up early and feeling like I have a purpose. I love that feeling.

Anyways my guitar skills are getting better. Been practicing for about two weeks straight. I've also been studying and I'm extremely happy. I can do this.

10:08pm December 11, 2011: Highlight of the day was the fact that I drove.

Today I went for a drive to buy ingredients to make home-made ice cream. It's rare for my father to be in a very good mood. I could say that he's slightly bi-polar just like myself but he's an awesome dad. It made him happy to see me driving and being independent but to be honest I felt really scared. Driving like that, all by myself. To be honest my biggest fear was crashing the car and upsetting him.

I would drive like a crazy mad-man (okay maybe not), if the car was mine. If I had the money to pay for the damages that I did, I would drive relaxed.

The incredibly ironic thing was that when I drove like I could pay for the damages, I was actually driving like a pro and at the same time I was able to talk to my father casually. I was able to talk to him about music, school and my brother's new job. It was amazing. For the first time in my life, my father treated responded to me like I was a grown-up. My father truly loves me and it makes me happy that he is delighted to see his son growing up.

The revelation I made today:
If you are afraid of something, because of some reason, act like that reason does not exist. Act like you can conquer the world, because some things are just worth it.


Good night everyone.

P.S. I love you, Daddy.

10:10pm December 10th, 2011: Did I just miss a blog post yesterday?

So I just realized I miss a day of writing something. I played a lot of guitar today. Weather here at the moment is really hot. I have nothing interesting to say nor have I learned anything from today's experience. I don't have the motivation to jog and I've been drinking coffee and eating junk food. I hope to break this habit soon.

I wish I could just be more happy. Dad has been really angry because of some things like having a lot of clutter in the house. I don't blame him but I'm really happy that my brother is cool about it. Love my family and I'd do anything for them. Just cooked dinner for the family and it was alright. It's so late and such a late update but I have to try saying something everyday.

My favourite music artist and inspiration has written a new song. I'm loving it. I can't wait for the next album but I feel that it might be a little different from her usual songs. I hope that's not the case. I really want to get a camera so I can take shots of the beautiful weather. Anyways it's pretty late. I'll probably head to bed after playing some Unreal Tournament.
Peace to all and good night!

2:26PM December 8th, 2011: A Revelation

I just finished my work for the day. My work is based on productivity so the more tasks I complete the more money I get. My work is VERY tedious and repetitive and it was very hard to get through it. I realized something though. The funny thing is that, if you can push through and just ignore the fact that there's so much more to do and just do it like a machine blank in thought, you can do anything.

So if you want to practice a certain instrument or activity, just push through and don't care at all about what you have done or what more is left to be done. JUST DO IT. If you think too much about it or if you keep checking up on yourself it will not get done and you will form new ideas that will most likely cause you to quit. Anyways, I'm headed off home. It's been a good day because I just earned another $25. Seems so hard at first but once the money's made, it's just too freaking amazing how you spent time on the computer almost the whole day like a freaking basement dweller but instead you're earning money. Hope that made sense.

Anyways, I'm headed off. I'll be writing up on something interesting tonight, hopefully :)
CHEERS cause it's almost FRIDAY!

9.25pm December 7th, 2011: I am frozen yet again.

I sit here frozen. I really want to play the guitar but I am afraid to ask my brother for his capo. It is extremely weird how something so simple is stopping me. I think I am just finding an excuse not to practice. It is extremely pathetic and I wish I could just CHANGE. I sit here on the laptop reading /r/GetMotivated on reddit. It's helping me but no matter how many inspirational images I save and read, I will never make changes unless I utilize my time wisely. I am changing. I know it. I can feel it because I know for a fact that I am a better person today compared to the man I was yesterday. I know I can do this. I have to do this otherwise I won't have a proper place to stay when I am older. i won't have enough money to support a family if I wish to raise one. So many dreams that can be fulfilled, only if I start doing things instead of being too shy.

If I pick up that guitar right now and practice, I could possibly make a difference.

December 7th, 2011: I finally have a job, but first......

I am a basement dweller. I do not necessarily live in a basement but I have mannerisms and I have lived all my life gaining characteristics of a basement dweller. I do not have any real talents and I have been sheltered from the real world by my parents for all my life and have decided to blog about how I feel and see the world.

My story is that I currently hold a job. But it is only a part time job. I am still in University but I feel no drive to study hard. It hurts that sometimes I feel like giving up and that holding even a part time job is difficult. It is not normal for me thus I feel like giving up on the second day. My addiction to the Internet and the computer is very bad. The worst part is that my part time job involves being at a computer. It is very weird and very sad that even though I am at a computer as a job, I still feel lazy. The easiest possible way of earning money and I still cannot do it.

This blog is to track my daily life and improving myself as a human being. I am ashamed and I wish that I could change. I have subscribed to www.reddit.com/r/GetMotivated/
I believe I can do this. I believe I can change.
I have many goals and many people who inspire me, both close personal friends and celebrities. In the couple of days, anyone reading this will be find out what my goals are and who I am.

This is my stand. I have to change.