Sunday, 2 September 2012

More posts to come

I've been away for a while now but I'm back! Motivated to get stuff done.
Today I went out with a friend to work out and I'm feeling great about it. The weather was alright but I'm glad it didn't rain. I went swimming and I read somewhere that there's a tribe in one South East Asian country that can alter their pupils to see clearly underwater.
I wish I could do that! I actually tried and obviously failed to produce any positive results.
I've also been going on boat rides for a while now. Pretty awesome stuff!
Awesome picture of the sea (obviously)
So I will be posting more later. I will definitely make sure things go according to plan!

Friday, 22 June 2012

Feeling very unmotivated

I really don't know what to say right now. I don't like my life and I want to make something out of it. I guess I grew up thinking that I could be someone great but never realized the great effort that had to be put into it. I wouldn't say I'm spoiled but I would agree that I was probably unknowingly sheltered from reality of things. It's a weird feeling. I know I want to make a change but I end up playing video games during the school holidays.

From all the moments that I have had holidays, this is the first time I have been "self aware" of my actions. I really want to change. I really do. I don't know why I feel less than other people. I feel like I don't get how they are motivated to find a job when all they'll be doing is something they hate. I'm talking about holiday jobs here. I guess I am afraid to do something that people who succeed in the real world are able to do. I am afraid of getting up in the morning to go for work. I love sleeping in. This is what I fear most about my future. I know myself too well that I may end up just being very miserable and unmotivated to go to work...that is, if I get a good job in the first place.

This is probably why I got into blogging, hopefully to get some incentive to work or earn a bit on the side knowing I am not completely screwed with a fixed income. I have the drive in my head, but my body refuses to move due to the fear of failing miserably. I hate fear. I am scared of failing.
What am I supposed to do? I have so many hopes and dreams that I know I can accomplish only if I let go of the computer. The internet has a hold on me. Forums and video games and Facebook.

I know anyone who may stumble upon this blog post might know how I feel. I really do hope this blog helps me express my feelings about my life and finally pushes me to change my lifestyle for the better. I could say I am addicted to this lifestyle of waking up at 10am and spending 4 hours on the computer first thing in the morning before doing something else. I see all these successful people and when I try my best to be productive for a day, I ask myself, "is success really worth it if I am suffering here"? This is when I realized that life is indeed difficult.....or is it because I've been trapped in this lazy lifestyle for such a long time that it is extremely difficult to get out of it.

I just turned 20 and I wish to be a more productive person. I want to own a business and not work 40 hours a week with a boss looking over my shoulders. Working at Mc D wasn't so good and I'd actually want to work 60 hours a week if it means I am my own boss. Again I dream of owning something yet I'm not doing much at the moment because of fear.

If I could go back in time, I wouldn't even go near a computer. I would only sit for a while instead of spending hours. I have spent so much wasted time on the computer, I could've mastered a skill like singing or playing an instrument. I would've at least probably had the chance to cash in.

I also know that I cannot keep looking back. This is another attempt at being more productive. This hurts so bad. Internet addiction is extremely sad but I cannot waste my life like this. It hurts because I'm afraid I may never succeed in breaking it since I have tried so many times.

Depressing post of the year? Maybe.
Just reality in my case.

Good night.


The Avengers

So I haven't been blogging exactly. I guess my only excuse is laziness. Basement dweller much? hehe....
Anyways, exams just finished and I'm going to improve my life from now on. I guess I have tripped but I am willing to get back up.

So I'll be talking about The Avengers. I must say that I really enjoyed the movie, but I plan on watching it again to really appreciate it as much as other people do. I read online about how awesome it was but I guess the reason I was "let down" was because I expected something a bit more.....serious? I will mention what was awesome and what wasn't, in my opinion.

This is a SPOILER WARNING in case you haven't seen the movie. But if the title hasn't given it away yet, then this is the warning I guess.

Anyways on to my first point. Before the movie I didn't really like Hawkeye and Black Widow 'cause they aren't really major compared to Spiderman. Their uniforms didn't really stand out to me but I have to say the movie really used them wisely with the amount of time they had. The fact that Hawkeye was turned bad at the start was awesome. He looked badass with the coloured eyes and the silent obedience. I like how Black Widow really cared about him and I loved their history.

Captain America's leadership was pretty well portrayed and I love how Bruce Banner and Tony Stark bonded as scientists. That really helped put things together. Tony's humour was still spot on and Thor was surprisingly used well since it probably was very difficult to meld in a god who talks "fancy" compared to the rest of them. I am willing to ignore how he got back to our realm but I am pretty sure it was explained through some prequel comic book or something. I must admit explaining that would have been irrelevant since it wasn't his movie.

The part where I was put off a bit was when they were arguing in the helipad in a comedic manner. I usually expect to see scenes like that in a family movie starring <insert white comedian here> (Steve Martin maybe? I don't know. Too lazy to google it....or should I say "bing" it? :P). Alrighty then I could have ignored it and enjoyed that scene (which I did by the way) but another scene that was too light hearted was when The Hulk punched Thor and also the part where he threw Loki around. I guess the part where he punched Thor was a bit much for me but throwing Loki around was alright.

Those were the few scenes that broke the seriousness for me. I guess I went in expecting to see a movie about the Earth being in danger and them having no hope. But it seemed like they were having too much fun when fighting. A major problem I had with the movie was the part when they started fighting in the middle of the city. I must admit that if this movie came out before any of the Transformers movies I would have absolutely gone crazy over it. The sad thing is, I guess I was still traumatized over how "Dark Side of the Moon" killed quite a few brain cells after watching that movie. I officially detest huge war-like scenes in the middle of busy cities. I hate how the enemies weren't much of a threat. A bunch of nameless and faceless grunts. I know it is just an introduction to who they are and how they work together. I enjoyed that part but those little things got to me.

Generally I enjoyed the movie but I would have changed a few things. I don't know what exactly I would have changed but I would not have chosen the city fight scenes. I really hope that The Dark Knight Rises doesn't have a similar "destruction of the city" scene. I've seen the trailer and I've seen some scenes shot in the city but I hope they at least make it look less like Transformers.

I plan to watch the movie again and I will be back for a review.

Cheers people and stay safe.

Sunday, 29 January 2012

8:58 PM 29th Sunday, 2012: It's a good day

I stayed home today. A bunch friends want to watch Underworld tomorrow. I hope it's good. I'm not really good with bloody movies. I'm okay with gore but not in a creepy way. I can't really explain but I enjoyed 300. Anyways I'll probably put up a review on that tomorrow.

There's this game called Chrono Trigger that I decided to try playing again. It is freakin awesome and everyone should try it out. I've decided to learn one of the background songs from the soundtrack on the piano. Brilliant soundtrack and I suggest everyone listen to it.

I'll just say that Chrono Trigger is my favourite game and I just hope to find a game as good as this. The story is smart and really awesome. Filled with emotion and you really feel like you're doing something epic.

Friday, 27 January 2012

27th January, 2012: I caught the lizards

I've been away for a while. I've been sick all this time and I'm feeling a lot better now. I think I was too careless with the gym equipment. All the bacteria must've got to me. I have no other explanation for my sickness. I was dealing with the equipment in a good way but I wasn't  really 100% careful with the germs and stuff.

Anyways, my last post mentioned lizards mating. I found those lizards a few days ago right in front of me. I know it's a bit creepy but I just feel like I have to get it done.

I have a feeling my few blog posts in the following days will be boring because school hasn't started yet. I've been dealing with depression a bit to be honest. I didn't have the motivation to get on here and write up blog posts because I felt really depressed. What is my purpose? What am I supposed to do? I feel trapped in my own world. I know there are other things I have to worry about and I am pretty fortunate to have all the things I have now but my standards are pretty high.
That is the danger of the way I think. I cannot appreciate, I do not work hard enough for things I want and when I don't like my current status, I get depressed. I know I'm pouring out my heart and all but I guess I haven't really improved on being a "basement dweller". I thought I could go far and push myself by learning many things but I feel stagnant.

I just had a shower and I told myself things will change. I think the thing that depressed me was being stuck at home and injured. No gym to boost my self esteem? Was it all just a distraction from reality all this time? Am I using the gym as an excuse for my "failure" in life?

I hope I can pick myself up and change for the better. I've got this and I am strong. I will not let myself down. I'm going to be productive and I will stop being the self-loathing person I currently am.
Anyways, here is the pic I took. Have a nice day, people :D

*pew *pew

Friday, 20 January 2012

12:10pm 20th January, 2012: Lightning and Rain

Hi guys. Sorry for not posting for like 2 days now.
Anyways I went to the gym yesterday without sleeping in the previous day. I felt okay but when I got home I slept for like 12 hours. I didn't have dinner or anything. Pretty hardcore I know haha.

It's been raining for like the past week. Well not raining the whole day but more like raining in the morning with lightning and thunder. It's crazy. A sad thing is that two people have died in the main city due to lightning strikes. What do you guys think of lightning strikes? I really really do not want to die due to this. If you think about it, you really have no chance at fighting back at all. Throw a bear at me and I'll try my best to outsmart it since I know that I have no chance to wrestle it to the ground. Let a pack of wolves loose on me, I don't mind at all. I'll run as fast as I can or befriend the pack and run after someone else but I do not want a freaking lightning strike from some random spot in the sky. NO FIGHTING CHANCE.

In other news, I saw this show on tv yesterday about a company in Japan that focuses on moving stuff. When you move from one house to another, they help you move and provide many services. What amazed me was how they had all these special objects that helped people move. They had this special dish rack to safely store dishes when moving. How cool is that? There was this shoe shelf that you could collapse  when it was not needed anymore. So many things. Get this: they also clean your stuff before packing them.  
My only concern is that none of my stuff better get stolen when packing.

There was this rather famous teenage beauty queen who returned to her home land (where I currently live) and she had containers of her things transported to her home. The thing is, she had many awards and fancy medals due to her status and position as a beauty queen. The guys transporting the stuff apparently stole many things including shoes and medals. One particular medal that she lost that made me feel very sorry for her was this medal she got from The White House. I haven't heard much about the story but I'm pretty sure the thieves didn't get caught. I think they just hired random movers who didn't have a license or something. Also, the police have a bad reputation for not getting stuff done but I'm pretty sure everyone hates the police for one reason or another.

One last funny thing I have to mention is that yesterday morning I saw two lizards mating on the wall making weird sounds. I wanted to take a picture and post here just for the sake of posting but they ran away as soon as I got close. Afterwards the male lizard tried going after the female lizard making mating calls but the female lizard just kept going. I feel really bad for cockblocking the guy :'(. Especially since he probably eats nasty bugs in the house that would otherwise be a hassle for me to deal with. Sorry Lizardbro...... really sorry :(

Tuesday, 17 January 2012

7:09pm 17th January, 2012: Random pics from the previous days.

So guys, today was my rest day. Sorry for not updating yesterday. I pushed myself during my workout and I was really tired. I could've done a blog entry but I had to skype with a friend of mine. I had a lot of catching up to do and time just flew.

I mostly ate a lot and rested today. An extremely plain and boring day but I'm glad I still have the motivation to write about whatever is happening.

Okay I'm not sure if that banana looks huge to you guys but it definitely was. I tried to use my arm for comparison but then again, I don't think it really helps >.<

Most depressing weather ever.
Okay so I took this picture when I was waiting for the pizza to get done at this pizza place. It didn't look this depressing but, damn looking at again makes me feel really sad. The pizza helped a lot though so I guess I didn't notice this really depressing weather.

Now check this out. Not bad huh? I thought I'd leave you guys with an interesting view. Gotta love the sky. It's weird how I appreciate the weather once I see a picture of it but I usually ignore it when it's right around me at that moment.

Hope you guys had a nice day. I'll be writing another article on whatever. This should be fun. Didn't wanna leave almost two days worth of work empty so I thought I'd share these photos. :D

Cheers to all my followers and comments! :D

Many new posts to come soon!

Sunday, 15 January 2012

9:26am 15th January, 2012: Batman Begins

Okay so I just watched Batman Begins and damn gotta say Nolan did an awesome job. I'm not really into comic books and I haven't read any comic books because it's hard to get a hold of one where I come from. Even so I must say Batman has to be my favourite superhero if I had to choose one. Mostly because of what Christopher Nolan has done with the movies. Really brilliant.

When I first watched Batman Begins I thought it was going to be a campy movie with a silly storyline. When it first came out I saw the part in the trailer where Morgan Freeman is showing him the gadgets and the explanation for him wearing a Batsuit but I just thought it was going to be a lame excuse to make it more appealing to the modern audience. I also thought the new "Batmobile" looked RIDICULOUS. Damn it took me about 5 years to see that I was dead wrong.

The introduction to how Bruce Wayne became Batman is really awesome. The writing is just amazing and how they were able to connect the events later on in the story. It is a truly brilliant origin story.

Most of the actors were just awesome. One of my favourites was the guy who acted as Carmine Falcone. Great performance and when I re-watched the movie I was just waiting for his scenes. Loads of respect for talent like that.

Cillian Murphy's performance was awesome as well. He auditioned for the main role but didn't get it. I guess Nolan saw his talent and kept him in the cast.

I must say the dialogue for the movie is brilliant. Very memorable and it sticks to the theme, which is: fear.
When we watch the cartoons and see other depictions of Batman, we see him as this legendary warrior and even if we don't think about it, every superhero movie should portray the main character as a legend. Especially if the hero is only human. Batman fans must have loved watching this movie to see that the main thing about Batman was done right. Otherwise it would just be this guy running around in a funny costume.

Speaking of the costume, I like what the costume looks like right now (The Dark Knight Rises). I think it's the same one in The Dark Knight but you gotta admit, this is looking pretty BADASS!


Link to costume.


I'll just link it in case it may be considered a spoiler but it seriously looks awesome. I hope it doesn't look ridiculous somehow but since that shot isn't from the actual movie I'm pretty confident my expectations will be met. Anyways back to Batman Begins.


I'll just say that I wasn't impressed with how the young Bruce Wayne in Batman Begins acted. His parents lying dead in front of him and he doesn't show much emotion. You could say he was told to act shocked but the kid didn't do a good job looking shocked. Well that's my opinion but I guess the other actors overshadowed his performance.

 Favourite moment: 
 Favourite moment has to be the last part. The dialogue is just really awesome. I can't stress it enough that the dialogue makes the movie what it is. I won't say much but this movie exceeded my expectations. I honestly thought it was just some other movie. I feel sorry for the makers of Batman Begins. They probably didn't gain as much money due to people like me thinking it was going to be another campy superhero movie. I know they got MILLIONS of dollars but I just wanna say..."Hey guys.. TAKE MY MONEY!"

If you haven't seen this movie, check it out.


 Happy Saturday guys :) (or Sunday)

12:43am 14th Friday, 2012: Kina Grannis - Cambridge

This blog entry is about Kina Grannis again, since I'm a big fan a.k.a Kinerd. Yes, I think I have a small celebrity crush but I'll still critique like a pro.

In all seriousness she seems like a  pretty cool chick that has this charisma that hits my soft spot in such a way that it tames this beastly heart of mine.

Her song "Cambridge" has to be one of my favourites. In my earlier blog post, I wrote about this wonderful lass and I mentioned about how I'm used to hearing songs about the guy hoping for the girl to notice him or somewhere along those lines. This song of hers is similar to those classic love songs but the roles are reversed (if you know what I mean).

I think the song is about a girl who wishes her partner would just make up his mind whether he's staying with her or not. I can imagine a guy who is unwilling to settle with the girl and is constantly causing fights because the girl loves him to the point where he thinks she doesn't have the will to let him go (*ahem not that I've been in a similar situation or anything).

The part that gets to me though is in the bridge where she sings:  "you once whispered words to me, wondering if anybody loved each other like we do". When I first heard that part of the song, and the way she sang it, I just kind of felt a bit sympathetic. The way she sang it in that video just seemed so genuine. Well to be honest these feelings are reinforced by my recent girl problems so anything I listen to amplifies my bawww units by 1000.

Sadly though the final studio and official version of Cambridge excludes a few lines from her original song (the video I linked). Somehow the original video is very expressive but some will agree her voice is not really in perfect form in the video. I mean she's not like Christina Aguilera or anything but not as good as when she's in her perfect state. The official version lacks the emotion shown in the original video BUT the song still stands on its own due to the  emotional and moving lyrics.

Now watching this video just made me realize how much she's changed.

Well the obvious difference is the hair. So guys, even as a person who has just seen her for the first time, which look would you prefer and why?

Anyways this is late compared to my usual posting but better late than never I guess.
Happy Friday 13th to all you guys that didn't have it yesterday like I did!


[EDIT: Images removed for possible copyright violation]

Friday, 13 January 2012

4:53PM 13th Friday, 2012: Black Friday.

So, apparently today is Black Friday. All I remember is if you break a mirror (or was it glass?), you'll have bad luck for 20 years. I first heard this when I was about eight years old. I was extremely scared to do touch glass but quite confident since my parents didn't let me do anything anyways.

I really don't have anything special to say about Black Friday but damn, the 12 year olds on my Facebook feed are going crazy over it. I was thinking of what story to share with my followers and I remembered this one funny memory in December last year.

Okay so my very good friend was going to leave for London for his training to be part of the Royal Marines and we had like one night of fun for him. Gathered our close friends to have a few drinks and listen to music. Later on we went club hopping and that was pretty fun. Anyways before that, there was a point where we all started singing in unison to this love song. My goodness we sounded so good (so I thought). Well all I can say is, I feel really sorry for anyone who was in the vicinity like neighbours or even my friend's dogs. That was the most ear aching thing (that came from human vocal cords) I've experienced in my life. NO JOKE.

I'm pretty sure it's common sense but I've actually got a recording of us "singing" (more like wailing) so I actually have solid proof and not hearsay to know that it's not a good idea. I'll try and get it off my friend from London and hopefully I can share it with you guys.
Either way, that was one of the most fun nights I've had with my friends.

I'll be writing an entry that's not so centred on my life. Probably another blog entry about Kina or maybe something else. Till then :)

Oh by the way, if any of you guys know how to prepare oats, I'd love to read up on it since my oats are just plain and with just a bit of milk. Unpleasant...unless I'm not getting the point of eating something like oats. Anyways, till my next blog entry.

See ya.

Thursday, 12 January 2012

5:29PM Thursday 12th January, 2012: Sherlock Holmes 2

Okay here it goes. I was supposed to wake up at around 6AM to go to the gym for my work out then meet up with a friend to watch Sherlock Holmes 2.
What sucks is I woke up at 9AM. The movie was supposed to be on at 10:20AM.
I blame this due to watching "An Idiot Abroad" till like 2AM. So freaking hilarious!

Anyways I made in time. I must say the movie is pretty awesome. The thing I love about it is the slow motion effect and the way they depict how Holmes comes up with strategies on how to do things. Very entertaining.

Don't go in expecting a deep storyline but expect Robert Downey Jr. perform with his impressive acting skills. I especially love the time it was set. I love how they're dressed in the movie. So much CLASS. It's sad everyday wear in our current time does not impress me. The acting was brilliant. What makes it truly awesome is the slow-motion effect. I could watch that all day .

Anyways at the end of the day I got to do my work out. I prefer doing it in the morning though since I feel like I'm in the mood to do a lot. As soon as I got home I watched Kina's video. I might report on that soon since I think it deserves another blog entry on it's own. Pretty awesome stuff.

I might add more later tonight. I am extremely exhausted and I just ate four eggs to get loads of protein and to get bigger. I realize I haven't gained weight and this is not good.

Good bye for now. I think I should rest....

Tuesday, 10 January 2012

New post in a while.

I'm going to be writing about my favourite artist at the moment. This is going to take a while. Hope all is good with all my followers.

Hope to get the article done by tonight. Cheers <3

Monday, 9 January 2012

6:35pm January 9th, 2012: First Week DONE

Okay guys. First week of Starting Strength done. I have been going to the gym and it's been pretty awesome. I feel a lot stronger and look a bit different so I cannot wait for the following weeks. I've been watching my diet as well. It feels good to be passionate about something again. The guitar thing is coming along great. I just learned the intro to "One Last Breath" by Creed. I love the intro because it's really complex.

Just watched the pilot episode to Terra Nova. I must say that I thought it would be more centred around sci-fi stuff but it looks like it's another family drama. I hope I'm wrong but either way I won't spend anymore time watching it. I watched a episode of Junior Master Chef and it was really entertaining. Gotta get used to DAT AUSSIE ACCENT. Oh yeah... I'd like to adopt some of those kids so they can cook awesome meals. Maybe make them learn super healthy stuff so I'm not stuck with oats and milk. Oh well, I guess I know what to make my children learn so they don't become even slightly like a basement dweller.

I just had cold coffee today after a long time. A long time for me is about 3 days and it just tasted much more awesome. Distance makes the heart grow fonder indeed. I didn't want to go to the gym today and I'm so glad I pushed myself to go. Almost ended up staying at home with the same routine. Stay home, eat, play games, surf the net, pick up guitar and then feel bad about not being productive later.

This whole gym thing is really making me feel good about myself. It's not about looking better or feeling better. It's about feeling stronger and enjoying the sweat and struggle. Every set feels good because it feels like a personal achievement. Nobody can judge and it is not opinionated. It is fact that I lifted a certain weight and my form was not bad at all. I like being in my own world just letting time pass by slowly while I do my thing. I like this. I should rest soon but I want to check stuff out. What to do....

Edit: Oh right. One more thing. Follow me on my other blog. Less vain and focused more on imagination and other stuff: 

Wednesday, 4 January 2012

8:00pm Wednesday 4th January, 2012: Okay I really am back!

So first post of the New Year. It's really hard getting stuff in line. It is so hard to write everyday. I really am a pathetic basement dweller. I can say that but I must not hurt myself and I must not degrade myself. I am awesome!
Okay I'm in a dilemma. Should I make go and pay $35 to sign up for a gym membership or should I just wait till school starts?
I have lost my motivation to play guitar. I recorded myself singing today and I wanted to cry. It was pretty bad but why should I keep going? I think i should. It hurts but whatever.

Parents making dinner. I ought to help but I just feel like I'll be pushed away. I should be the one making dinner. I don't want to be a basement dweller like some people I know.